In the comfort of my undeclared prison

I remember when someone first advised me of the book searching for meaning in life by Victor Frankl more than 2 years ago, did he know that things are going to become this bad..maybe not yet in that time I found it strange to be advised about a book regarding prison life. it seemed I was the only one with so little information about what is happening in my life, and it seems everyone in my hometown had sold me a long time ago before I even realize what was happening. was I this naive or was it that I was in a community and situation that allowed me to be fuckedup before I realize why.

you know the Why question is the most important question and if you don't know the why of something most of the time you can't act in the correct way. 

I think I know the why now although I am totally convinced that it was something I had no part in and was framed for it without even having to know...Funny isn't it. 

The most important thing is I feel that the worst-case scenario didn't happen ...and I just end up losing some fake relations and money and maybe some fake reputation in a fake community with one of the fakest values after the war. And the real damage that was personally designed for me and my family didn't happen which made some really powerful assholls really angry and Furious. 

let us just say that the evil that was surrounding me in the last 3 years wasn't satisfied, and this is something to worry about. I don't know why but I understand the way evil thinks and plans very well, maybe because I am in peace with my dark side or come to accept and hold my Yin. which is something we hardly read or understand in the middle east and monotheism religions.

This concept of ( Yin and Yang ) which is very rooted in East Asian culture and heritage, and is represented in most famous dramas and Japanese anime. the two faces of one man, the two faces of one coin, the good, and evil, the two worlds we see it now on the world stage where the world seems as if it is divided into two parallel universes with two types of people prospectives, which you see obvious in the news. 

Sometimes when I think about the ruling party in China because the minister of foreign affairs is now in my country  I think it's a shame what we hear about the policies to erase the Chinese heritage and change the identity of china which is one of the oldest civilization in history beside Egyptian.

Most of the time I was highly affected by the old Chinese books and Confucius and Tao Tzu heritage of wisdom.  The strange thing is that I found Americans to study these principles and translate them to English in a way that was more understandable to foreigners than its original script.

Anyway, Victor Frankl in some time really gave meaning to my life ^^.

18/7/2021