Have you ever been lost in another world where everything that you once knew is gone?
you try too hard to grab the few memories you still have, the few good memories that you try to recall in each little chance but you discover that you don't live there anymore.
Have you ever been so fast that the only thing this speed allows you to do is see to the hidden faces of people behind masks?
everyone is fighting for something. Some people fight for money because they couldn't get it, or simply because they are too greedy,
some people are fighting for power simply because they want to control, some people are fighting for their families, and some people are fighting because of their belief system, some people are fighting because of all the injustice they felt and the hate which was escalating inside because of all the mistreatment.
but the most dangerous type is those who fight because fighting is all that they ever knew.
it's just because they were in too many battles that they stopped thinking about why they are fighting.
those are the most destructive type.
It seems that there is power in the hand of the people and this power instead of being used to make their life and their leaders better, it is being used to fuck each other.
As if the famous saying that the commons can't make good decisions or that people need someone to control them is true.
it seems that the famous misconception that some people can't do or can't learn because of being from a lower class, differnt relegious or raised in a different way is true, maybe its true despite i don't want to beleive it, but in the rais of AI , bioengineering and human machine interface this will be irrelevant.
yet I have seen enough in my life to understand this is not the true case.
I have seen people that can't speak and just because they are from a good family they were trained to become very good speakers,
I have seen very shy men become very outgoing and trained in a way that made them monsters in social life, just because they wanted them this way, or came from a group or place that should have this superpower.
but I also saw men and women who had everything they needed to be very successful but been broken by the system systemically inside the law frame.
I have seen also very good women turning to bitches because they didn't have a choice or they lost belief in the justice of God.
I have seen also very strong believers turn from one side to the other.
and it seems that it was inevitable that bitches, sychopath, and assholes are destined to rule over us.
and at some point you start to say enough is enough, i have had enough of that...didn't we all been there. i want to go in that direction .. that direction that made bitches have power more than decent women, that direction which made unworthy assholes become so much success and have so much social power that it's difficult to distinguish them from real genuine leaders, and even holy men.
in those minutes of life, you start to wonder, what is religious, what is wrong and what is right,
who can judge what is good morals and what is not, and if god's words have been twisted so many times through history is it wise to follow those people who were programmed in a certain way to tell us what is right and what is wrong. and even if some people belief in God is so powerful and unshakeable because of their programming since they were children, is it really wise to think we are the only ones going to god kingdom or heaven.
the more you read through history the more you start to doubt the need for alot of things, the more you start to doubt the origins story, if all this shit with all this open connected world can happen in this advanced age, just imagine what could have happened in the time kings had power over people as gods, imagine what could happen when no one used to speak the truth about what really happened in the dark.
it's really bad to see right through people's words and thoughts because it makes you understand that the most dangerous predators on earth are humans. but the difference between humans and animals is that usually animales at least from the same species don't kill each other, a lot of them even predators don't attack each other, and even if they attack each other they stop before killing each other. but humans don't do that.
they can kill each other, they can eat each other, and gives you a very logical explanation for that. i think this is the main problem, is that they can explain that logically, usually the strong in the animal kingdom don't have to explain himself, yet i like those people who when they know when there is no point of explaining they just don't.
everything i see in here and through my travelers just indicates that there is a revelation of the people who were distant to be slaves without knowing that, yet the strange idea is that despite that they know, and despite they are given a lot of their freedom it seems that they just want to stay in their comfortables boxes, where they only question their very close environment without questioning anything that they didn't know or see.
well, i might have lost the battle of life.
I am 38 years old now, I dont have a job, i dont have money, I don't have any friends that i can count on, and i don't have a family or even a girlfriend I spend abig part of my life studying for nothing, and i am alone in a differnt country, i also lost my beleive system of god and in humanity, the only time I had sex in 7 years is with a bitch because I was in a situatinon i started to doubt my orintation and even being human because i needed a female human touch after I spent so long time alone and trying to be a good man and trying to redeem my past mistakes because in my naiive mind I really wanted to go to heaven ....but there is a time when you say enough is enough, because i really can't understand anymore what God or what religious they are talking about.....and the main problem is that I really don't like and don't agree with those who say that we are only monkies,, it seems i can't get along with those also.
Despite Losing my old life i just don't know where i am getting all this confident from in analysing my surrounding.
